Gabriel "Stitch" Ho
Also known as Gabe
15/04 is my day
Interest Include:
Stitch and Angel
Lego
Taekwondo
Star Wars/Lightsaber Combat
Nerf Blasters
Cycling
Etc(Lazy to type...)
Relationship Status: Single
Still keeping that promise
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Meaning of Stitch
Dedicated Bus Driver
The Wonders of having a Child-like Faith
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Blast to the PAST!
February 2013
March 2013
21st March 7:11p.m.
WARNING: Major rant here. Long and
windy.
You
have been warned.
Well,
today seems an ordinary day to people but for me, this is when I died inside.
My beloved left.
It
all happened in a blur. Emotions were hot and the text came as fast as words
flew around.
She
left.
I still cry over her, tear up when I see her, think about her whenever I have nothing to do, think about her when I sleep and wake up.
I
have many great memories with her(till now). She was my first (probably only) love.
She was never the girl I expected but the girl I always wanted. As this day
come and go, I kept thinking about her and all the things she would do.
Skip this part if you don't have time.
How
she would stick to me like a older brother
How
she would self-own herself
How
she would share weird and funny facts with
How
she would chat with me whenever I feel down
How
she would fail trying to cheer me up
How
she would apologize to me for being such a bad sister
How
she would get every chance to get close to me when I'm around
How
she would write blog posts about me
How she would describe me as “that only guy who's
giving me unidentified expressions and feelings”
How
she would try to give subtle hints that she has a crush on me
How
she would hate me for being inept in seeing your hints
How
she would want us to be “Mickey and Minnie Mouse but not Spongebob and Patrick”
How
she would try to not like me but fail so badly
How
she would abandon her friends to be with me
How
she would find time just to be with me
How
she would poke me, hit me, slap me hard
How
she would tell me that she wants to see my toy dog
How
she would lie about seeing my dog when she want to see me
How
she would pretend to sleep in my bed and peek at me
How
she would cry badly because she did something bad to me
How
she would cry when I got angry with her for only confessing after a year
How
she would blame herself badly for confessing to me
How
she would try to make it up to me
How
she would cry in my arms when I apologised for being such a dumb idiot
How
she would apologise to me with those tearful eyes
How
she would say that I’m helping her recover from all the previous scars
How
she would try to lean her head onto my shoulder during our first movie
(Tangled)
How
she would be happy when I guided her head onto my shoulder
How
she would write a letter about the few torturous when we never spoke to
each other
How
she would say she never regretted confessing to me
How
she would want to hug me ever since our first hug
How
she would spend time with me every Saturday
How
she would literally kick me out of MY room every time she wants to change
How
she would hug me just to apologise for kicking me every time
How
she would try to glomp(jump and force me onto the ground) me
How
she would try to name my toy dog
How
she would be happy with the name Yoko
How
she would hug Yoko in replacement of me
How
she would react when I tell her to go hug Yoko instead of me
How
she would act like a 3 year old
How
she would share weird and facts that I didn’t need to know
How
she would buy cup noodles and eat with me while watch a movie at home
How she would be so unafraid of sharing food with me
How
she would show me =3
How
she would laugh at me for laugh at =3
How
she would share food with me whenever she can
How
she would buy Sticky, Fruitips and many sweets we share in common
How she would lick all the sweets before giving it to me (like what...)
How
she would tell me she hopes to be my wife
How
she would scream at me for saying I want 5 children
How
she would scream louder at me for suggesting to name our children Gabriel Jr.
or “Her Name” Jr.
How
she would hate me so much for knowing how to make her happy
How
she would hate me more for making her deeper in love with me
How
she would make time to spend Valentine’s Day with me
How
she would blush when I said “I love you”
How
she would be so happy when I made a origami flower for her
How
she would blush so badly when I first kissed her
How
she would be so high after I kissed her
How
she would hit me for claiming her first kiss (My first kiss too)
How
she would slap me for making her blush
How
she would blush whenever she wants to kiss
How
she would hit me for making her ask me to kiss her
How
she would enjoy the kiss
How
she would doubt if she is good enough for me
How
she would tear when I said I wanted her
How
she would cry badly when I told her “It’s you, or no one else”
How
she would be happy with that promise ever since
How
she would try as much as possible to book me for couple time
How
she would lie down beside me when I was very tired
How
she would cuddle close to me
How
she would hug me the force me onto the bed
How
she would just fall asleep like that
How
she would drool on me when she slept (Ewwww)
How
she would steal my clothes and wear them
How
she would steal my jacket and leave me cold
How
she would hug me after that (Purposely -.-‘’’)
How
she would sit beside me when we are studying
How
she would randomly nudge, poke or disturb me while studying
How
she would try so hard to make sure I’m in her view so she can stare at me
How
she would try to get me to text her all the time
How
she would spend up all my phone prepaid credits to do so
How
she would call me when I’m cycling
How
she would scream at me when my credits ran out
How
she would take my stuff and ransack to find weird stuff
How
she would sit one side and watch me play Nerf
How
she would be afraid I can’t stand her nonsense
How
she would try to be nicer to me
How
she would fail trying to do so
How
she would stand all the mocking from my friends for being with me
How
she would ALWAYS be insecure about me
How
she would react and I pulled her to the mirror and hug her
How
she would try to avoid looking in the mirror
How
she would blush when she sees us in the mirror
How
she would admit that we good look together
How
she would want our wedding photo to be like that
How
she would like the surprise back hugs from me
How
she would admit that she likes my smell
How
she would steal my old PE shirt and wear them
How
she would cuddle with me then fall asleep while hugging me
How she would stick close to me when there is no place to sit
How she would lose balance and always grabbing me for balance(Sometimes grabbing me by the neck...)
How
she would lie on me on the MRT
How she would hug me while travelling
How
she would be afraid of the dark even along the road
How
she would be hogging my hand so tightly
How
she would always hate me when I get her to walk through the darkness with
me
How
she would try to at least give me a hug and kiss before she goes
How
she would be unhappy if she doesn’t do both
How
she would send it over using texts or MSN
How
she would talk rubbish with me over MSN
How
she would try to sneak a “I love you” over the phone
How
she would cry badly when her parents found out about us
How
she would feel confused between what she wants
How
she would try her best to be with me throughout
How
she would get caught again and still want to be with me
How
she would get angry with me when other girls get close to me
How
she would be jealous when I spend time with my friends
How
she would be embarrassed when she found out I spend more time with her
than my friends
How
she would dream about me when sleeping
How
she would love me even more
How
she would steal my phone, wallet and stuff just to see what I have
How
she would stick with me through every bad time I had
How
she would eat ice cream with me when either one of us is sad
How
she would be happy when I was busy but made time for her
How
she would kick me off the bed
How
she would try to prevent me from falling off the bed
How
she would lie on me and poke me when I don’t want to talk to her
How
she would lay there until I cannot breathe
How
she would hog the entire bed and make me sit in the chair
How
she would steal Yoko from me every time I have him
How
she would take Stitch after that
How
she would act all childish when she couldn’t have both
How
she would get mad at me for bullying her
How
she would love me even more despite the bullying
How
she would try to go out on dates with me
How
she would hug my hand when walking
How she would hate PDA so much while she is doing it
Meh...
You might say I'm clingy but I just fell hard for her.
I don't know if I can find another girl that is just as amazing as her.
She just unknowingly became every bit the girl I wanted.
That's why I promised that she will be my only one.
A promise I intend to keep. It wasn't just words, it meant everything to me.
But all her letters of promises, becoming husband and wife, how she wants to hog me all for herself just vanish with a text.
She was my pillar of strength, support, motivation and love.
She left and everything came crashing down.
I know I didn't do my job as a trusty companion well. The reason why she left was my fault. I was a selfish bastard who could not see past the needs of myself. I didn't take care of her well enough, I took her for granted, I treated her like she was going to be there forever. That's the reason why I'm like this, meeting girls and feeling that I'm not good enough for them. Afraid that if I had a relationship with them, I end up hurting them as well. Afraid that I couldn't be good enough for them.
Confused and betrayed. I wish I could turn back time and restart my entire time with my her. Starting from the beginning and becoming a better boyfriend.
I never stopped loving her. I know I did great harm to her. I'm sorry even till this day.
My brain tells me to forget her but my heart tells me otherwise.
Yes, I know she still hate me very badly. I know she want nothing to do with me. I just can't stop loving her
She is still just every bit the amazing girl I wanted.
I am just here, forever loving you.
This is Gabe,
Signing out.
I will love you, I will love you always;
7:11 PM
Thursday, March 21, 2013